20 weeks


20 weeks and halfway to baby day! Ben came earlier so I like the thought that I’m already over halfway.

Baby Boy is around 6.5 inches long and weighs approximately 10 oz. this was the first appointment where my fundal height was measured and I was exactly at 20.

My appetite is back and I’ve been able to drink the right amount of water for close to a month now. I’ve gained about 6 lbs since my appointment 4 weeks ago. I’d be lying if I said that doesn’t bother me a little. I’m all about gaining healthy weight while pregnant but I really don’t want to gain 40 lbs like I did with Ben. It was probably a lot of water retention but it got really hard to move around toward the end. The doctor did not comment on my weight gain this week so I’m guessing everything is fine.

My OB appointment was blessedly routine. The ultrasound results showed no abnormalities or things to be concerned about, for which we are very thankful! In my doctor’s words, “Just keep doing what you’re doing and I’ll see you again in four weeks. ”

I wasn’t very satisfied with the way the tech did my ultrasound last week so I scheduled an elective scan with a different office last Friday. Sure enough, as soon the tech touched the wand to my belly, we saw little boy bits. We are so very excited to have two boys so close in age!

This photo was taken on Sunday morning, just before 20 weeks.




19+1 weeks


Baby is getting bigger and kicks are much stronger than they were even last week. I still love feeling them but might change my mind when I can’t sleep by the time August rolls around.

I had my anatomy scan this morning and as far as I could see, everything looks good. Baby 3 has all the appropriate limbs, heart chambers, an adorable little face, and little boy bits. That’s right! We’re having another boy!

I’m still in a bit of shock and am a little disappointed I don’t get to buy little girl clothes but thrilled to see him and know he is a he and hopefully B and I will agree on a name sometime before he arrives!

Ultrasound techs aren’t allowed to interpret the results of the scan so we’re waiting on the official word from the doctor or radiologist that everything really is ok. I know there weren’t any obvious things wrong like missing limbs, etc so all I can do is wait until I get a phone call or until my OB appointment next Tuesday.


11 weeks (Updated)


Huzzah! 11 weeks! I go back to the OB for another appointment on Wednesday but we’re assuming everything is ok because nothing has changed.

Baby 3 is the size of a green olive or fig or brussel sprout. None of the apps agree how big really. He/she is fully formed and wiggling and growing as fast as he/she can.

I think I’m starting to feel a wee bit better but I always think that while my meds are still working, never after they’ve worn off. I haven’t thrown up in days but I don’t know if that’s actual improvement or being able to manage better. I’m curious to see what my energy level will be now that I’m home again and don’t have to be on my feet all day. We are thrilled to be home and for things to get back to normal. For one thing, Ben is still sleeping as I write this at almost 8:10 AM and last week he had been awake by 6 almost every day. That boy loves his bed and we love him not being able to see us immediately when he wakes up!

I really don’t have much of an update today but maybe there’ll be something else to add after my appointment in a few days.

I had my 11 week appointment this morning. I wasn’t too nervous but started panicking a bit again when the nurse couldn’t find a heartbeat with the doppler! She had me strip down to no clothes, found the ultrasound machine, and called the doctor in. So, instead of the worry and stress free appointment I was expecting, I got ANOTHER cervical check (just fine), ANOTHER uterus check (bigger, right density, where it should be), and ANOTHER tv ultrasound. Before the OB even had time to turn the monitor around, I heard, “There’s the baby!” Insert sigh of relief!
Apparently, this baby is as much of a mover and a shaker as Ben was so he/she wouldn’t stay turned in the right position to get a doppler reading. Heart rate was 162, the baby measured at 11+3 (I’m 11+2), due date stays the same, and I get to stop taking Progesterone whenever I feel like it (or the end of week 12). The appointment wasn’t what I expected but the outcome was what I desired. Only 10 more days until the end of the first trimester!


Sometimes Things Don’t Go as Expected

The OB’s office called me back this morning and we scheduled a time for me to come in during the early afternoon for the nurse to scan again and this time the doctor was available for an ultrasound if necessary.

The nurse listened with the doppler, the doctor listened with the doppler and they still didn’t find anything.

One short wait that felt terribly long later and the ultrasound showed the baby but no heartbeat. Baby 2 measured right around 9 weeks so something happened a week ago and I had no clue. I haven’t had any cramps since 5 weeks or spotting at all this pregnancy.

We’re still in shock and are mourning our little bean. Part of me can’t believe that we’re going through this again! Why me? What is wrong with me that my body can’t grow a baby?!

We have to decide what to do next, either wait for a natural miscarriage or schedule a d&c. I’ve been through a natural miscarriage and it’s not something I’d like to repeat. I’m starting to think it will be worth paying the ridiculous copay to be put under and not have that memory this time around. Either way, we’re waiting over the weekend because there’s nothing that can be done until Monday.



Turns out, the baby is fine. I was not feeling signs of an ectopic pregnancy but a cyst on my right ovary. A very real thing was causing the pain (not in my imagination!) but should go away on its own within the next few months.

Sigh of relief

On the upside, I got to see the heartbeat today! A tiny, hard to see flicker on a tv with bad reception but it was there. The heart rate is good for the baby’s age as well.

I got our first set of ultrasound photos done and as much as I would love to show you all, I can very easily remember what it is like to see them while still struggling with fertility issues so I will hold off.

Enough about me, how are you all doing?


Irrationally Worried

Over the last few days, I’ve become increasingly more worried that this is an ectopic pregnancy. I’ve had a bit of pain on my right side but have no way to judge how severe it is. I called the doctor’s office and they scheduled me for lab work and an ultrasound tomorrow morning.

I’m sure it’s nothing but I really want to be positive there is nothing wrong.

Ever feel like things are going too well and you’re about to be taken down a peg or two? I just can’t shake the feeling.