CD: 6, Clomid Day: 4 (1 more day)

I’m sitting on the couch with the air conditioning on, wearing a tank top and yoga capris and am radiating heat. I forgot the degree of intensity that these hot flashes have. It’s been almost 2 years since my last round of Clomid so there was plenty of time to forget. So far, things seem to be going well. The side effects have been kept to a minimum (only hot flashes) and I don’t think I’ve been overly grumpy or scary hormonal. B is thankful!

Getting pregnant again freaks me out for many reasons. The chance of conceiving twins with Clomid is so much higher than normal conception (7-8% higher I think) and I am a small person. Twins as our 2nd and 3rd babies would definitely be a lot more difficult, baby gear-wise, than the first because I don’t expect showers this time around. Buying another car seat, crib, cosleeper, clothes, diapers is an overwhelming task!

Our health insurance changed after I quit my job too and already this insurance is driving me crazy. My OB’s office is a “specialist” only because they do offer specialized services in addition to their regular OB practice. Just because their name includes “specialists,” my copay is $70 each time I go in instead of $40. That’s a huge jump! Some of the medications I was on last time, like the progesterone (Crinone Gel 8%) is only a brand name and is classified as an infertility drug so, of course, insurance doesn’t cover it at all. The out of pocket price surprised me; its over $500! I’m not as concerned about that one because I know there is an oral progesterone option that you can get from a compounding pharmacy like certain Walgreens, with or without insurance, for $50 or so per month. Still, maternity care is much more expensive this time around than last time.

Even though I get overwhelmed from time to time, I don’t want to stop, slow down, or wait. The timing is right for us, even though I can’t keep from worrying but I doubt I worry more than the average prospective mother. Our finances have never been in better shape (debt free!!!!!!), I am home with Ben every day and B is working from home so we can share the load on days that I just can’t hack it. We have close friends who love us and will pray us through another pregnancy and family who is always willing to help. The house is in good shape (except for yard work, don’t even go there!) and we have space for 2 more babies, should we end up with twins. Life is good.

We’ve been thinking about replacing the carpet in our family room because it’s in rough shape. The previous owners had 3 kids and a dog and the carpet is white, at least the parts between stains are! We have had it professionally cleaned and it still hasn’t improved much. We spend so much time on this floor that softer, less gross carpet would be wonderful. We don’t want to overstep our financial abilities (see: debt free, finally) but at the same time, both of us realized that it would be easier to move all the furniture, rip out the carpet, pad, and a million staples now when I’m not nauseous or too round to crawl around the floor and those things could happen within the next 6 months! I don’t plan on anything but hope for everything at this point. I’d be thrilled if this first round worked! So, it looks like we’re getting new carpet that feels like a stuffed animal and makes me want to rub my face on it! This is what we picked out, if you are curious.


Provera Worked!

The Provera worked! I was very worried that it wouldn’t since last time I took it for longer but apparently those worries were pointless.

Today is CD1 and I start taking Clomid on CD3. I’m excited and anxious all at the same time. Since I’m starting at 50 mg, there is a chance it won’t work for several months and I’ll go back to Provera to try again. I’m praying it will work at a lower dosage this time!


11 Months

Our baby is growing fast! Only one month away from the big 0-1!

Ben eats pretty much everything we give him these days. His favorites are still chicken and black beans but also enjoys cut up whole wheat pasta and green beans. He decided this month that he doesn’t want to be spoon fed anymore. I panicked for a bit, trying to figure out how on earth we’d get enough food in him. He loves eating from the squeeze pouches so I started hunting for reusable ones I could fill with homemade food or the leftover jars from his spoon-feeding days. I settled on these and am really happy with them so far! I’ve only had one instance of them leaking out of the zippered bottom but I think that was more user error than anything.

We had our first getaway with a mobile baby who wants only finger foods this past weekend (B was a groomsman in a wedding). Hotel floors really gross me out so I was concerned about him getting enough exercise during the day. Luckily, I picked a recently renovated hotel with super clean floors! The whole room was incredibly clean AND included a little fridge for all his pre-cut food. We brought an apple cut into slices, cut green beans, pasta, black beans, colby cheese, and food packets with oatmeal and apples, prunes and apples, sweet potato and green beans, and chicken sweet potato dinner. We went through almost everything we brought and he didn’t starve, even with skipping one or even two milk breaks each day. The big excitement of the trip was Ben’s first swim in a big pool. Being the little water baby that he is, it didn’t surprise me at all that he loved it!

B had a 5 day work trip at the end of July that was miserable for both Ben and me because Ben was teething still/again. The top two front teeth came in last month and now the teeth on either side of his bottom two are in. The ones on the top that flank the top teeth have been working their way in too but aren’t there yet. At one point when B was gone, Ben had 4 teeth coming in at once and slept horribly the whole week. Of course, as soon as B got home, Ben started sleeping through the night again!

Ben still fits in most of his 9 month onesies but a few are a bit too short. I just bought a set of onesie extenders from a seller on Etsy that will make his onesies 2 or so inches longer and will fit longer. Ben wears shoes most of the time when we’re outside now. He has a pair of Robeez soft soled shoes and a new pair of soft soled tennis shoes. Other than those two things, he hasn’t outgrown much in the last month.

Ben’s most important new skill is standing up. He figured out how to stand by pulling on his crib and now pulls himself up on everything!

In addition to waving, Ben now can clap his hands and is starting to understand how to shake hands. B is having a great time figuring out what new “tricks” he can teach Ben!

Our front living room has been completely baby-proofed and Ben is allowed to explore the whole space to his heart’s content. There are a few different areas he likes to play in: Next to B’s recliner with the walker toy, in the middle of the room with books and toys, in front of the tv with small blocks, eggs, and stuffed animals, and behind the couches by the front door. He loves move small objects around. Recently, I couldn’t find half of his wood blocks, most of his wood eggs, and all of his colorful shapes. I looked in a few of the obvious places (did I put them away in the wrong bucket?) but it wasn’t until I looked in a very new place did I find them. We have two large baskets on either side of our tv stand for blankets. Ben had discovered that it is very fun to hide toys in the blanket basket. Right now, Ben is sleeping and I need to pick up the living room. I see at least 4 toys hiding with the blankets that Ben had stored for later!


Ben and Mowgli are best buds


Big boy!


We were both so excited when B got home from his long work trip!


Celery is great for teething


Ben fell asleep sitting up. I don’t think B and I have ever laughed so hard!


Knocking back the sippy cup. I have an idea for a post about the hunt for the elusive perfect sippy


Giant baby standing up!


Hiding my toys where Mommy can’t find them


Eating apple


He LOVED the pool!


Nekkid pool baby


Ben really enjoyed the wedding, especially all the toys in the church nursery!


Holy cow! I’m 11 months old!


All Systems Go

I had my appointment with the OB this morning. I chose to talk to the same doctor who treated me after my miscarriage two years ago and prescribed the Clomid that gave us Ben. He doesn’t have the best bedside manner simply because he doesn’t sugarcoat anything and I appreciate that. A friend of mine who goes to the same practice avoids seeing him whenever possible because she likes her doctor to be more sensitive. Apparently, I just like the truth!

When he walked in and asked what I made the appointment for, I told him straight out that I’d like to have another baby but was concerned about a repeat of last time (2+ years of trying, miscarriage, and multiple medications). He immediately asked if I wanted to try Clomid again! I didn’t think it would be that easy. I figured he would want to try waiting longer or another medication first but he didn’t.

I walked out of there with a prescription for Provera to start a cycle and Clomid for days 3-7. The prescription was written as 50 mg daily even though it took 100 mg daily last time for it to work. I’m supposed to take 50 mg for several months both to see if a lower dose would possibly work this time around and so my body doesn’t go into shock and send out too many eggs at once. I already took my baseline pregnancy test (negative) so it looks like I’ll be starting Provera tonight!

Here’s hoping we get another one of these really soon!